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My name is Natasha. I really really like blinky lights, beepy noises and things that go "click". i love coffee and noodles and BIG PLATFORM SHOES. I love downtown toronto and shopping to feel better. I love my Devon because he is my glitterbean.
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...written on 2005-04-06, @ 8:56 p.m.
wow. how long has it been since i last wrote in this thing? i feel like i've been letting down all of my faithful readers, whoever they may be. be prepared, this entry is going to be full of news, some good, a lot bad, and some that really depends on your point of view. so sit back, grab some popcorn, and read on.
Well, let me rewind to...about three months ago. you probably all know about my friend lindsay, whom i was best friends with since second grade. yeah, we had a lot of ups and downs, mostly ups though. however, due to a lot of neglect, and the sudden appearance of an ohsoimportant boyfriend i am no longer in the picture. mind you, a lot of it was my fault. it has taken me a long time to realize that, but she still refuses to take responsibility for her part in the downfall of a lifetime. needless to say, her boyfriend and i don't like each other. and she made her choice.
next off is...well, it kind of happened at the same time as the whole lindsay fiasco. an old old friend of mine, whom i hadn't spoken to in over a year because of reasons neither of us can remember suddenly got in touch with me which since then has made such a HUGE difference in my life. my parents have a bit of a problem with the friendship, as she is a good five years older than me, but that's alright, because i manage to get around that.
lastly is...the drugs. okay, the drug. singular. the wonderful love of my life (though not first on the list) ecstasy. kandie. adam. whatever you want to call it i love it. and i love the friends it has made me. i know that sounds bad, but it's true. it's made me more social and because of that i have a lot more friends than i used to, friends who are better friends than lindsay ever has been to me. and i've only known them for a few months. though, the drugs have caused some shit...okay, they ruined one of the best things i THOUGHT i had going for me.
Ryan broke up with me three days before our two year anniversary. It came as a huge shock, seeing as everything seemed to be going so well. but after a huge fight on msn, after the fact, the truth finally came out. he was angry because i hadn't told him i was doing e again, and i was angry because he was seeing some girl behind my back. so...all guys are assholes. and i will continue believing that until one comes by and proves me wrong.
that's all for now. but i promise, i'll try to keep this thing updated more often. if not, attack me with notes.